Over a decade ago, award-winning journalist Lucy Palmer's beloved husband Julian died of cancer, leaving her alone to manage a farm south of Sydney and to raise their three young children. This moving and beautifully written memoir explores her experiences of death, loss, single parenting and growing older. It is a way of making sense of the momentous experiences that Lucy says she has been privileged to live through, and her honest and inspiring account of putting the pieces back together and finding hope out of a seemingly hopeless set of circumstances. This is a startlingly moving book to read and offers new and surprising ways to think about the worst that can happen and what it can mean for us.