This memoir, based on diary entries, is a frank, moving and sometimes humorous account of Matt Barwick's struggle with infertility, and diagnosis with bipolar disorder triggered by a family suicide.
At twenty-nine, still childless after a year of trying, Matt and his wife Ali realised that starting a family was not going to be the 'cinch' it appeared to be for most of their friends. The couple started a crash course in conception from a straight-talking fertility guru and the journey towards more serious medical intervention begins.
Already feeling the strain of infertility and the recurring cycle of disappointment, Matt's world comes crashing down when he loses his only brother to sucide, resulting from depression that was largely hidden from the world.
